"I am not alone"

So much of the time, as I battle with chronic depression, my days are dark.  My skies are grey.  I'm tired.  My brain is cloudy.  I feel so lonely.  Yet, it's a vicious battle...I'm lonely but being around others is so exhausting.  I feel expected to be what I'm not.  People love to be around people who are energetic and positive all of the time.  I've seen it, I know.  I don't bear my soul for pity, I do because this is reality, this is life.  I'm tired of the masks.  So, please don't judge...for we all have our own monsters to fight.

Trust me, if I could change it, I would.  I want to see the sun.  I want to dance and spin unreservedly.  I want to be free.  I need to know I'm not alone.

I am not alone

By:  Kari Jobe

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bfveawSAHJA&nohtml5=False

When I walk through deep waters

I know that you will be with me

When I'm standing in the fire

I will not be overcome

Through the valley of the shadow

Oh I will not fear

I am not alone

I am not alone

You will go before me

You will never leave me

In the midst of deep sorrow

I see your light is breaking through

The dark night will not over take me

I am pressing into you

Lord you fight my every battle

And I will not fear

You amaze me

Redeem me

You call me as your own

You're my strength

You're my defender

You're my refuge in the storm

Through these trials

You have always been faithful

You bring healing to my soul

Deep Waters, Maine 2015